We have found, through long and painful experience, that we are unable to achieve recovery from sexual addiction through our own efforts. Our program is based on the belief, confirmed by our own experience, that a Power greater than ourselves can accomplish for us what we could not do alone. By surrendering our addiction to a Higher Power, we receive the gift of recovery, one day at a time. Sex Addicts Anonymous page 1
I had a strong faith tradition and I believed, not out of legalism but out of sincerity, that acting out for me was wrong. I tried many ways to stop. I prayed. I repented. I even at one time said that I would give to the church the same amount I spent on prostitutes (that strategy didn't work or last long). Every time I think I got the right doctrine or thinking or key, I would go along just fine a while. And then seemingly out of nowhere I found myself in a massage parlor or an adult book store once again.
It wasn't that the things I was trying is wrong. I still personally believe in prayer and repenting and exercising my faith tradition. It's just that I was trying to do it all by myself by reading a book or by trying to puzzle it out. This thing was so strong that it wasn't going to be broken on my terms. I needed something greater than myself even if it was another person who had obtained sobriety and was willing to share with me the path of how they found it. This is what I received in joining the SLAA meetings in Boone.
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