Sex addiction is a disease affecting the mind, body, and spirit. It is progressive, with the behavior and its consequences usually becoming more severe over time. We experience it as a compulsion, which is an urge that is stronger than our will to resit, and as obsession, which is a mental preoccupation with sexual behavior and fantasies. In SAA, we have come to call our addictive sexual behavior acting out. (Sex Addicts Anonymous, page 1)My foray into sexual addiction was as a young man when I went into a pornographic theater for the first time and thought I was in heaven. I then moved to escort services and then found Asian massages. Later, it became street pick ups and then acting out with men in bookstores and public places.
All of this went against my moral beliefs. Yet, I found that my addiction was like concentric circles of ever increasing behavior and risk. One person said that they couldn't lower their moral standards fast enough to keep up with their behavior.
I attempted many things to stop but the obsession and mental preoccupations would return at will and I would find myself acting out again.
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